Usually I'm stressed about how to best use the days off, since they come so few and far between and I thought I'd be all like "WE SHOULD BE MOVING!!!! ARGGGH!" But I really have just had myself a grand old time!
It started out with my co-worker J and I seeing New Moon on Friday. Which may have been my second time seeing it in a week. And may be only the second of three times total that I plan to see it. But whatever, Kerri and I are out of the Twilight closet. If loving Twilight is wrong, I DON'T WANT TO BE RIGHT.:)
Thanksgiving, which I remembered as cold and lonely last year, was actually a really fun day! I got to wear the Perfect dress, which instantly adds good points to any day, I had some great chats with my in-law family members and got to watch Ratatouille with them later that evening. I adore that movie. And the food! THE FOOD. Although I didn't over eat, which pretty much made the day.
Taylor and I made some progress on the packing/moving situation, although we still don't know when we'll be able to move in to the house, we are organized and ready to go when we can. I've also made peace with the fact that we have no control over the situation. It's such a blessing that we even have a new house waiting for us, so I've decided to be happy about that and stop stressing about the "when." Talk to me in a few weeks if we still aren't moved in and I might not be so serene however.:)
Speaking of Taylor, he and I have had a ridiculous amount fun the last couple of days. Saturday we headed up to Bridgeport (am outdoor, AWESOME mall) which is oh-so-magical at Christmas time, and just strolled around, shopping and snacking on the best, most giant bag of kettle corn EVER. Though we didn't get to eat at PF Changs, since we had dinner plans elsewhere, we really just had a great time together. This may or may not be influenced by the fact that we spent about an hour in Anthro, where I got to try on all of the things I've been drooling over and wait outside while Taylor purchased some of them for my Christmas gifts. Hurrah!
We also spent Sunday afternoon at his parents house, where I...wait for it...PLAYED GAMES. And I had fun. Please don't tell anyone, I don't want to ruin my reputation. I really just have the best in-laws of all time.
Another high point of the break was the maiden voyage on my new treadmill! I am so looking forward to getting back into shape and having the ability to run/walk, day or night, rain or shine. It will also help me avoid the paranoia that attacks me every time I go running. I blame this on my Mother.:) She had someone follow her on a run once and from that day forward, Ive been just sure someone is going to kidnap me on my outside running treks. But, I shall worry no more! My treadmill is le awesome. It even has a plug-in for my iPod, so no headphones necessary, and a fan that blows right in my sweaty face. Merry Christmas to me.
The final high point of the weekend (at least that I can remember) was just a little while ago as I sat down to finish my BSF study. I know not all of my readers are particularly religious, but I just wanted to share the encouragement I found as I was reading my lesson. So many of my fears are rooted in the fear of dying, getting sick, something terrible happening to me/loved ones and/or my life turning out to be basically meaningless. You know, the little things. One of the questions pointed out that if we believe that we are saved through Jesus and that we will spend eternal life in heaven, WE WILL NEVER TRULY DIE. We will live forever.
This struck me with such a feeling of freedom. I am so not perfect. My life can be a real mess. I struggle with fear and doubts, I have a hard time feeling like God is there and many times I dread going to Church. But because I believe this deep down, whether I feel it or not, I will live FOREVER. What do I have to be afraid of? Not one single thing.
I know not everyone believes as I do, but I just want to say that I really appreciate everyone who takes the time to read my blog and go on this journey with me. Thanks for caring about our house, for giving input on my queries, for sharing my love for all things apparel related and for taking the time to pop in on my life. Y'all are the best.
So that's about it from the Krameymartin household...how were your holidays?
4 comments:
It's upsetting to me that Taylor has already purchased your Christmas present and yet my birthday is in 10 days and guess who has purchased NOTHING!
I'm going to make a playdate for Bill and Taylor. Taylor has a lot to teach Bill, it seems ;-).
So thankful for that encouragement to you from God's word. Sometimes - a little treasure just hits you just the right way - even though you've known it all along. In my experience, I think these fears are very common for young women in your time of life.
For our first few years of marriage (ok, first 6 or more! years of marriage) I struggled with anxiety attacks, fears, doubts - very similar to what you are talking about and what I've read in your writing before. In the last couple of years, since I have had children, sold my business and am now just home, peaceful, fulfilling what I know the Lord has called me too - they are much fewer and farther between. Praise the Lord. I talked with my grandma about it once and she said she used to experience the same things. So my best advice - stay in the Word (BSF is awesome!), limit the obligations in your life, and let some thoughts of babies and home slip in little by little. ;-)
I am so glad you had such a peaceful & rewarding break! And look at all you accomplished!
Still praying your paperwork goes through sooner rather than later, but until then remember everything happens for a reason.
I love your remarks on your Bible study. I get so caught up in fears, many irrational, but I need to just sit and ruminate on the verses that tell me I am saved, and I have nothing to fear; what can mortal man do to me?
So glad that I am not the only one who struggles with crazy fears.
And, one thing I have learned and always try to remember... feelings don't determine your salvation.
Whether you feel loved by God or not, He loves you.
=D
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